Tuesday 5 July 2016

Current situation (no hates please)

Depressed, suicidal.

     Here I am, back again. I was getting better and right now, I'm just getting worst than before. 2016, senior year for me, an important year for my education as well but things really aren't working out well right now, not at all. In danger.

     A little teenager named (name to your liking) is having huge trouble in concentrating on her studies. Parents, teachers, family all having expectations on her but her situation now isn't that cooperative with all these. She needs a doctor, she needs help but to what everyone cares only is her education in how she can score with flying colors. Her mother did it! Her elder sister did it! Now it's her turn but.... she couldn't do it. Right now, money is a problem, society is a problem, herself is a problem. Why can she do? She's beginning to talk lesser than before. She's beginning to isolate herself more from the world and from everyone around her. Or she'll 'SNAP' at whoever that comes her way. She's confused. 

     Day by day she hates herself. She's being unproductive for she no longer have those energy to bring out any activities. She'd lost all interest for things around her. Looking at mirrors all she could say was "why are you you? I hate you." She doesn't only lock everyone out but she also locked herself out. Whenever she cries, that pain is overwhelming. She strangles herself to stop the tears. She wanted people to not give her up but, she'd already given up in her life, in herself.